I am probably the dumbest person I know. Regardless, life is incredible. Since moving to New York, in the short time I have been here, I have learned so many things about myself. I am fully embraced by the magic that I hold in me. The blossom is slowly opening and there is change and beauty all around.

The first snow of the year fell today. As I was walking the streets of Brooklyn the rain slowly started to change to ice under the streetlights. I suddenly felt lost and at the same time at home as if my state of helpless floundering is exactly where I belong in my rain soaked boots and my flimsy umbrella. What is this strange place. Where is this energy coming from. It pulses everywhere around me. It draws me in and chews me up and spits me out only to suck me back in when it's through and start it again. Perhaps this is what it feels like to truly be alive. To actually live your life. I am only sad that I haven't known this feeling until now. Still I will take the good and the bad and everything in between and I will hold it and caress it and love it until it is no more. But until then I will sit in this room and listen to the howling of the wind and hope and wish and pray that everything will be ok. And I know it will be.

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