Not sure what to think. Not sure how to feel. Isolation? Maybe that is the best bet. On Christmas day I awoke to an empty house. I began the day completely crushed and thought to myself "I will not let this day make me, I will make this day!" I wound up wandering Central Park for hours by myself. I watched all of the couples taking pictures, the families pushing strollers, the tongues wagging in foreign language and accent, the children throwing snowballs, the ice on the pond thickening. A frozen wonderland. Surrounded by so many people but completely at peace in my solitude. The air is cold, the ground is white and wet and there is noise all around me. I find an abandoned path and perch myself on a bench and just wait. Christmas was a good day.

So, when the going gets rough the tough get going. It seems as though the answer is all inside of me. If you are nice enough, I might even let you in on it, but you're going to have to work for it. Trust me, it's worth it.

Bring on the new year.

1 Comment

1. Tracy on January 1, 2010 at 11:18 AM

   LOVE THIS!